31 10 2012

God’s Will
” Thy will be done, in my life as it is in heaven”

Matthew 6: 10 (NAS)
“Thy will be done!”

The next phrase of the Lord’s prayer that I found myself trying to breath in the storms of the illness and disease was “Thy will be done!”

I’d put unspoken expectations, provisions, and conditions at the end of it. For example, if I can return to work and not need to go on disability, if this illness isn’t a serious and limit my activities, if Jim will come back and a not divorce me. I yelled, fussed/cussed, moaned/groaned, bitched/twitched, screamed, and yelled “No! Not this cup at or that cup!’

These battlefields lasted days weeks months and years. Slowly, ever so slowly, I was able to drop the limits on what God‘s will might be. God‘s will unfolds moment by moment in all the events of my life. As I fight the Gethsemane battle, I pray, “Thy will be done! ”

There were those around Jesus that felt that Jerusalem and the cross couldn’t possibly be in God’s plan will and will for Him. They were looking at things from earthly calculations, rations, and reason. None of this would compute for them from where they were standing.

But standing on the other side of the cross, you and I can see re-demption and re-creation for all mankind, the Lord’s view! As you and I stand at the beginning of life, you think can find God’s will at that point for the rest of your life. Not so! God’s will is that you manifest his strength in every moment of your life to his honor, praise, and Glory. The particulars matter not.

The lord is looking at your relationship with Him and the tiniest of things of life. You do God’s will, not been useful to Him but by being and in right relationship to Him. It’s god’s promise of will that you not wrestle with Him but wrestle with things before him, like Jacob.

As you abide in the Lord in every circumstance, battle, and struggle of life, you are the will of God. It’s the only you obey and are faithful to the task of the moment, in the darkness and an unknown, that you fund the Lord’s will. The Lord expects shoot to do His will and helps you to do it.





28 07 2012

 

                           My Daily Bread                

 

       “Give me this day my daily bread” Matthew 6:11”

 

                        “You give me my daily bread!”

 

       When I was first diagnosed with systemic lupus (SLE), I became shackled in my yesterdays & tomorrows. I was stuck focusing on either what horrible or wonderful might come tomorrow, or how great yesterday was & longing have it back. I was constantly obsessing on fears, anxiety, grief, anger, and fantasies based in past and future.

 

       Slowly, I began to break out of the bars of my prison by groaning from my spirit as I woke up & went to sleep each day. “Help me make it through this day; thank you for this day or moment.” My pastor pointed out I was praying the Lord’s prayer phrase from the Lord’s prayer. That gave the feeble groaning of my spirit the structure of formal words & understanding.   

 

       At first, present moment living was only a means of survival for me. At times it was broken down to nanoseconds living! By breaking down what seemed monumental tasks into nanoseconds, moments & days, step by step, I made it through deserts to the mountains tops! Ion time, present moment living became celebration, , the abundant life. I was anchored in the harbor of the bread of my Lord centered & focused in the miracle of the moment of now.

 

       As the children of Israel traveled through the desert, the Lord gave them manna or bread for each person to have ne small bowl full per  person. They couldn’t save it one day to the next except on the Sabbath. If they tried save manna for the next day, it bred worms & became foul. They\survived on what they needed as the Lord provided their portion for the day.

 

       Christ offered His body for you & me to provide the grace needed only as it comes in the moment, when taking one step out in faithfulness to the task at hand. You can live by bread & of te Lord. You need to harvest only your portion of fresh bread within the moment or day. You can’t hoard for the next day!

 





16 07 2012

“Love the Lord with all you heart, mind, and soul and your neighbor as yourself.”
“May Your love flow through me!”
The only way that you can truly love yourself is through the flow of the Lord’s love! After you do that you can accept yourself whatever state you find yourself in … divorced, illness, broke, jobless, on disability!
When you arrive at that state, you stop reviving up your bodies’ response system & minimize illness and self-destructive habits! You become healthier mind/body/spirit! You stop turning up your bodies defenses!
You can master whatever state you find yourself in. You can transcend most any condition or circumstance. Love and accept yourself warts and all. Let the flow of the Lord’s love heal you & your situation.
Research shows the systems of the body respond to your emotional state … psycho/neuro/immunology. Let the flow of the Lord’s love govern your life as nothing else can. Find peace and joy only the Lord can give!
To kiss the joy of life is to live in the Spirit; it is to live immediately, boldly with gracious abandon; willing to risk much and give one’s self! It is to go with the flow of the Lord’s love and let it carry you where it will with no regard to yourself.
You’ll find yourself in places your never imagined, guessed, or visualized you would be. Let go, throw your hands up on the roller coaster of the flow of the Lord’s love.
Give it all to the Lord and let Him do what He wills. You’ll be eternally glad that you did!
“May Your love flow through me to …. Heal all my dis-eaes, …. Order my steps, …redeem all things in His perfect wisdom, grace, and timing to His honor, praise, and glory!





13 07 2012

Portion
“The Lord is my portion. Psalms 119:57”
“YOU are my portion!”
In allowing the Lord to become your hope and confidence, He can become your portion to make it through the battles of this life. A portion is the part of a whole that is allotted to to a person or group. It’s only in the Lord that out portion can become whole, complete, and perfected.
Other words that might be used in place of portion are serving and helping. This seems to be saying is all that you need in this life to be filled and satisfied. Many times, what you want and need to be filled or satisfied are two different things
Dieters are encouraged the portion of their food and eat little of everything, not a lot of anything. According to dieting theory, when you eat beyond your bodies’ satisfaction limit, you reset your internal guide, as to what need to include more and more excess. You turn up your appetite beyonf what you really need to stay healthy.
Some eating experts say you need to listen to your body and eat what your body is craving. When your intake isn’t exquisitely fine tuned to you output, you put on extra pounds that put a strain on your cardiovascular, musculoskeletal systems. Financially, when your intake isn’t equal, tou end up in debt. The same thing happens emotionally and spiritually.
When you make the Lord your portion, everything follows in that wake. Recently, I experienced an instantly life threatening infection that settled next to my carotid artery in my sphenoid sinus. My financial, emotional, and spiritual resources were not equal to the demands. When I hit the wall and claimed “You are my hope, confidence, portion, everything else fell into place. The Lord became my portion brought me all I needed as I needed it!





7 07 2012

 

          “For you are my hope; O Lord God,

 

           Thou art my confidence from my youth” Psalms 71:5

 

          “YOU ARE MY HOPE AND CONFIDENCE!”

 

       As my whole life has been shattered and fallen apart around me, I have found that only the Lord can be my hope an confidence! I’ve lost me health, my ability to be substantially, gainfully employed, my profession, my marriage, support communities as I knew them, right to apply for health and life insurance, and everything in life as I knew or dreamed it would be.

 

       You can’t make anything of this earth you hope and confidence … not any person, institution, health, possessions, looks, intelligence, , dreams, fantasies, dreams, support communities, the church, abilities, etc.. Everything n this earth is in constant motion and change. The only thing you can count on is the Lord!

 

       To stay healthy you need to stay in motion physically, emotionally, spiritually. When you get stuck, you get backed up, constipated, and become unhealthy. To stay in motion you need to learn how to let go of: children who grow up, dear ones who die, spouses who leave us, those who wrong us, old expectations of life, ourselves, and former employers.

 

       To be able to let go you need to be able to relax.  Just to be able to urinate, have a bowel movement, give birth, laugh or cry, you need to able to let go! To grow you need to be able to let go of the old, to move one to the new. When you try to hold on to things and keep them as they are, you block the flow life in you with its ending surprises!

 

       To let go, relax, and go with the flow of life, you need to make the Lord you only hope and confidence. I find myself clutching over and over when things get difficult. Once again, I need claim the Breath Prayer “ You are my hope and condidence!”

 

          “For you are my hope; O Lord God,

 

           Thou art my confidence from my youth” Psalms 71:5

 

          “YOU ARE MY HOPE AND CONFIDENCE!”

 

       As my whole life has been shattered and fallen apart around me, I have found that only the Lord can be my hope an confidence! I’ve lost me health, my ability to be substantially, gainfully employed, my profession, my marriage, support communities as I knew them, right to apply for health and life insurance, and everything in life as I knew or dreamed it would be.

 

       You can’t make anything of this earth you hope and confidence … not any person, institution, health, possessions, looks, intelligence, , dreams, fantasies, dreams, support communities, the church, abilities, etc.. Everything n this earth is in constant motion and change. The only thing you can count on is the Lord!

 

       To stay healthy you need to stay in motion physically, emotionally, spiritually. When you get stuck, you get backed up, constipated, and become unhealthy. To stay in motion you need to learn how to let go of: children who grow up, dear ones who die, spouses who leave us, those who wrong us, old expectations of life, ourselves, and former employers.

 

       To be able to let go you need to be able to relax.  Just to be able to urinate, have a bowel movement, give birth, laugh or cry, you need to able to let go! To grow you need to be able to let go of the old, to move one to the new. When you try to hold on to things and keep them as they are, you block the flow life in you with its ending surprises!

 

       To let go, relax, and go with the flow of life, you need to make the Lord you only hope and confidence. I find myself clutching over and over when things get difficult. Once again, I need claim the Breath Prayer “ You are my hope and confidence!”

 





2 03 2012

                Grace

 And He said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my strength is

made perfect in your weakness!”

               “Your grace is sufficient for me!”

People wonder at how I’ve survived the upheavals and storms in my life. Sometimes, so do I. My response is  “Only by God’s grace and my grit!” It certainly hasn’t been anything I’ve done or accomplished. God has provided His grace in the moment for whatever hurdle or challenge that was here! As seek His grace in each moment, He provides all that I need step by step, task by task, chellenge by challenge.

Paul was asking for his thorn in the flesh to be taken away. The Lord said “My grace is sufficient for you!” You and I are the same way. We magically want that dis-ease, discomfort taken away, grain of sand, or difficult relationship, or anything that makes us stretch and grow taken away. The Lord wants us to stretch  and grow. The Lord wants us to stay with it and let Him redeem it in His perfect wisdom, grace, and timing!

When you follow the leading of the Holy Spirit in the smallest thing and believe God is engineering your circumstances. The limitless power of God’s grace is behind you. You draw on His grace in the moment of crisis, turmoil, and confussion … the present of the exact moment. When you are drawing on God’s grace, you c\an be humiliated by the circumstances of your life and manifest nothing but His grace.

God doesn’t ask you to do anything easy Or natural. You are called to do the the things that by His grace He has perfectly fitted you to do.

God’s grace in my dysfunctional family, and divorce has made me perfectly fitted to be a medical psychotherapist. I can help people and their families choose life and the challenges of living!

Nothing you can do will grant God’s grace. It’s a gift given freely and abundantly. Your job is only to be open to His grace. It is sufficient and all you need for any challenge or hurdle you face. It is enough to embrace all of who you are, no matter what you are facing.





25 02 2012

 

                        Weakness

 

“And he said to me ‘My Grace is sufficient for  you,for MYstrenght is made perfecfin you!’”

 

Many times when people realize all that I ave lived through they say “WOW! you are so strong!”

 

I explain that it’s just the  opposite of what they think. It’s when I  claim my weakness  the Lord’s

 

strength  is manifested and perfected in my weakness.

 

When I am feeling sick, tired, confused, lost, fearful, anxious … weak, I claim each time I breathe

 

out “In my weakness is Your strength!’  I focus  my thoughts on the Lord.  As I focus on  HIM , the

 

thoughts  that feed those feelings fall  into the background.

 

If  I choose to focus on the  thoughts  of  weakness, I only enhance  the end product of those thoughts.

 

I  get into  a  mind/body feedback  loop  where my thoughts  and body’s go nowhere but in a

 

nonproductive circles. Emotions are the marriage of thoughts  and manifestations in the body.

 

By claiming empowering breath prayers , I break the mind/body feedback loop!

 

By  claiming my weakness  made  perfect  in God’s  strength , I find the impossible become possible.

 

I, also, find protection in breathing this breath prayer. My weak spots are where Satan, as well as, the

 

Holy Spirit can enter in. I seal over my weakest spots and bind a Satan with God’s strength.  I find

 

protection  by claiming God’s strength at my weakest spots and thoughts on each breath!

 

God’s strength can be manifested in my illness, divorce, codependency … weakness!

 

I have  so  much weakness, not my strength where I will be most yielded  to the  Lord and His

 

leading.

 

You are strong only when you accept yourself as a “human being’”  not a “human doing  and wekness

 

where God can manifest His strength. The sky is the limit when you realize that  it’s in your humanness

 

,and limits that He can do His most miraculous work! As long as you focus on your own strength and  control

 

the  Lord  can’t manifest and perfect His strength in you.